Boo!

Fear makes us feel our humanity - Benjamin Disraeli 

I have a fear list.  It's a list of things I fear.  I try to make it as honest as possible.  Then I attack. If I can attack my fears, then I do.  For a while people thought it was because I didn't like being weak, and fear makes one weak.  I couldn't quite figure it out, until I saw that quote.  I attack my fears because it makes me feel my humanity.  It is a very honest list of my limitations, and I like seeing if I can push them.  It makes me feel alive.  It's exciting to live outside of my comfort zone.  Here is the list of things that scare me. 

1. Never achieving a healthy weight
2. Achieving a healthy weight
3. Being a bad teacher
4. Being a bad friend
5. Never being in a relationship
6. Flirting
7. Being honest with my feelings
8. Letting people take care of me
9. Asking for/accepting money
10. Heights
11. Nightmare land (when I wake up from a nightmare and I'm still afraid of everything, but i'm awake)
12. Attaching 
13. Being in a relationship
14. Cancer
15. Letting people down


So there are somethings I wont attack, like cancer or Nightmare land or being a bad teacher/friend or letting people down.  The rest though, if I get the opportunity to do any of them, I do.  Why stay where it's comfortable?